In the 1960’s my mother and father came to this country knowing one language, one religion, and what hard work ethics were. They were in a complete aw of what America was like. They came here with very little knowledge and very little monies, so we’d be safe to say that they were very gullible right. We’re talking hardcore Catholics that you’d think would never convert. One morning, yes you guessed it on a Sat. there was a knock at the door. Two very well groomed individuals that spoke there language and lets not forget there wonderful smiles that lit up the sky, were there on their front door steps. They were their first guests, excited they invite them in. We all know what happens next, we all get the jiff. So the mustard seed was planted, the more family and friends that came from the old country the more that were devoured. It was amazing how many converted. They had enough from our family alone to start there own congregation in the matter of just a few years. We’ve all heard the saying the bigger it is the harder its fall, that’s exactly what happens and is continuing to happen as I write. So many cover ups, Divorces, D.F.ings, Panic attacks, Anxiety attacks, Bipolar disorders and many different stress related illnesses such as heart attacks etc… just in my family alone would make, All My Children, As The world Turns, Days Of Our Lives and any other soap look like Sesame Street. Being away from this environment now for 10 years I’m just starting to become healthier in a lot of different ways. I still am working things out but I truly now see that all these things were only happening in this circle. It took me a while to see it because that’s all I saw for so many years. Starting to talk to family members that never became a witness were so confused as people usually are told me our family history was fine until we came to the America’s and became J. W’s. I’ve done my own research on my family history and it’s really scary finding we came from an extremely healthy past. With this personal discovery of mine and the reading of so many others, has made me truly dedicate my life to psychology. I feel the stronger my mind is, the stronger I become. 10 years ago my brain was mush, I believe I was reborn when I decided to have no part of that society. Being a big time mommy's boy, and only knowing that way of life, I saw no future because of so many truths that were stolen from me. In bed for 4 months after my decision, bed soars all over my body, I attempted to take my own life. Having a mush brain made me fail that attempted as I believe I was extremely blessed that I survived, because now I can dedicate my life to helping others get thru it.